最近我一直在思考,怎樣才會感覺快樂。
我昨天一面洗澡,一面回憶過去快樂的經驗。
一次是親自做了份麵包夾蛋給外公當早餐吃,看到外公滿意的微笑,我也非常快樂。
另一次是大學聯考考上,看到平日嚴肅的老爸笑了,我也同樣感到不可言喻的快樂。
最近一次是第一次牽到老婆的手,那份緊張卻快樂的心情。
還有就是拿到退伍令和碩士畢業證書的剎那,感到「呼~終於完成了!」的快樂。
之後就沒有了。
現在的生活很平靜,沒有大起,也沒有大落,我也很滿足、很滿意現在的生活。
但是卻少了那份快樂。
仔細歸納快樂的來源,似乎都是累積前面的辛苦、努力,最後某人或眾人給予正面的回饋,自己所感到的剎那,就是快樂。
老婆一直提到正面思考、正面能量,但,這些從哪來?
帶著笑臉出門開車騎車,大家不是你你爭就是我奪,不是吸煙就是違規,做了這些,他們或許快樂了,反而是循規蹈矩的我,看到這些亂七八糟的東西,笑臉漸漸往下沈,變得不怎麼快樂。
工作上還是你爭我奪,我知道你有房貸車貸要付,還有不小心射精跑出來的小孩要養,另外還有哀鳳一一二三四五六七八九十要買,好好好,沒關係,我都讓給你,結果你為了讓自己快樂,show off有妻子房子車子孩子金子,我卻e04的很想問候你老子。
在高位的,看似無能,但仍有辦法賺進大把違心的鈔票,我只能眼睜睜的看著他們壓榨下面的勞工,讓自己娶一房二房三房,包一奶二奶三奶,我卻無能為力幫助那些弱勢的族群。
別跟我說捐錢給公益團體,你捐的錢,是否真用在你想要幫助的人身上,這我只會打一個大大的問號。
電話不見朋友的問候,倒是一堆銀行、保險、詐騙、拉皮條的來電,有一次接到好心的來電提醒卡片點數快到期,我心想怎麼佛心來的,後來講著講著才知道是黃鼠狼給雞拜年,又要推銷保險。
你保險公司都要倒了,都要被人併購了,我還每月每年拿現金來供奉你買地養地炒樓,我是神經病嗎?
很想出國散散心,但我也知道,就算每天都出國,其實也無法獲得真正的快樂,反而回國後會更空虛。
知道的越多,會發現自己越渺小,有時候覺得不知道這麼多反而比較好,自我感覺良好可以把自己膨脹到無限大。
我沒有不快樂,也不是憂鬱,只是很難再感到快樂。
你,快樂嗎?是真的快樂嗎?

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關閉系統基哨站。 這個世界,只不過是,謊言支撐起來,當一切改變時,別期待 國家 與 政府 或 任何人的承諾,因為 生死,都隨時存在,只是人類體型放大化,且記憶裡 存在著,安全思想,比較多一些生存而已。 沒有供需,一切都是假的,只是透過 各種手段 與 職業,獲取 等值的證明,紙鈔 與 錢幣。 所以生存概論,推翻政權 或 加入集團組織。 This world is just supported by lies. When everything changes, don’t expect the promise of the state, the government or anyone, because life and death exist at any time, but the size of human beings is enlarged, and there is in memory, safety thoughts, comparisons Survive more. There is no supply and demand, everything is fake, just through various means and occupations, to obtain proof of equivalent value, banknotes and coins. So an introduction to survival, overthrow the regime or join a group organization.
一個錯誤的選擇 一個錯誤的環境 造就了 一連串 錯誤的事件 軍隊 隸屬 特殊環境 , 官員有責 解決底下問題, 否則沒資格 命令 不要只會 , 升官發財 , 滅證卸責, 受傷死亡, 都不算數, (該死的軍隊)(管理極差) [該休息 休息][該工作 工作] [很困難?] (作息時間,與外面社會,稍微不同,當然正常) (部隊管理不佳, 造成他人精神壓力問題) (部隊管理不佳 ,造成他人工作負荷過重) (部隊管理不佳,造成 軍職 約聘, 捉弄 與 陷害 他人, 永久上的紀錄遺憾) (受傷沒說,完全不算數)(內傷算自己該死) (卸責厲害的軍隊) ( 上電視、上報紙、莒光園地、女兵日記 ) (形象 洗白 第一名) A wrong choice A wrong environment Created a series of wrong events The army is in a special environment, and officials have the responsibility to solve the underlying problems, otherwise they are not qualified to order Don't just get promoted and get rich, destroy evidence and shirking responsibility, Injuries and deaths don’t count, (damn army) (very poor management) [Should take a break] [This job should work] [It’s difficult?] (The work and rest time is slightly different from the outside society, of course it is normal) (Poor management of the troops, causing mental stress to others) (Poor management of the troops, resulting in excessive workloads for others) (Poor management of the troops, resulting in military appointments, teasing and framing others, permanent record regrets) (I didn't say the injury, it doesn't count at all) (Internal injury counts as one's own damn) (Short the blame for the powerful army) (On TV, Newspaper, Juguang Garden, Female Soldier's Diary) (Image whitewashing first place)
最近讀到佛教的四法印「諸行無常、諸漏皆苦、諸法無我、涅槃寂靜」。 由於一切都會改變,所以追求永恆的快樂,無異是緣木求魚。 跟你一起分享。